I am not what they call "eloquent"

I gave a little psuedo-speech about intentionality at senior night but I felt a little weird about it because I usually don't talk about things so earnestly, so I just had to write it out. For all interested parties:

The other day, I was trying to come up with the most dangerous/most positive life philosophy that I have absorbed from Penn during my four years here. I'm still working on pinpointing exactly what the most positive one was but I definitely know which was the most dangerous. The most dangerous, pervasive thing that I can pinpoint is this generalized casualness. On the one hand, Penn is a very pre-professional school at which it's considered normal for people to make choices in terms of academics from the beginning of their time here. I'm not against planning but at the end of the day, a person is made up of more than just their intellect, so why is it ok to have such a passive, casual relationship to everything else? On a super simplified, most basic level everyone is made up of an emotional self, physical self, intellectual self, and spiritual self. If you live in just one part of that you will be in a lot of pain. And because Penn is populated with so many smart people I think that the most natural response to that is to kind of just try and live within the intellectual sphere while neglecting the rest of yourself. But you can't. The most obvious, super-simplified example: if you spend months and months feeding your intellectual self through studying quantum physics and you don't eat anything....your physical body and consequently you will die. I don't think death is limited to the physical, I definitely believe there is such a thing as spiritual death. More general, if you are living too much in one of these aspects of your identity will always result in some sort of death. I know so many people at Penn who are ruled by their emotions without even being aware of it. And I've actually found that the people who seem or claim to be least emotional tend to be the ones who simply suck their emotional dysfunction into some other aspect of their life. All that to say, count the cost of the choices you make.

Be aware of where you spend your time and know that the small choices you make in terms of time expenditures have very real results. If you are in school or even if you're not are scheduling your life in a way that will feed all of you or just part of you? It's not ok or healthy to spend every waking moment of your life doing school work (not to say it is ok to be lazy). It's also not ok to be extremely casual in determining who you form relationships with. and so on. You're so precious so act like it! I'm not saying to avoid things that are hard but I do think that it's important to go into situations using wisdom and with both your eyes open. So if you decide to pursue something academically (deciding to be pre-med for example) just know that comes with a time cost that will most definitely effect your emotional, physical, and spiritual self. Similarly, I think it's important to actually be intentional in prayerfully picking your friends as opposed to just settling for the friends that are around you the most or easiest to relate to. Any significant relationship, friend or otherwise, that you form is going to mean that you are entrusting that person with some of your emotional well being, so make sure there going to be a good steward of that!

Speaking of Intentions:
I struggle with knowing if/when I should care about the intentions of others in relation to myself. Like I understand that from a God-perspective, intentions matter. But I am still unsure as to whether or not I have to care about other people's intentions when they cause me harm. Earlier this year someone really unnecessary hurt me but when I confronted them about it they emphasized that they meant well. When it comes down to it though: who cares? If you did something that resulted in me getting hurt I just don't see why it should matter to me whether it was accidental or intentional and why you should expect me to react any differently. So if someone is reading this and has any strong opinions please comment or call me or w/e. I'm curious. Btw there is definitely a difference between meaning well and having good intentions....but that's a whole other story.