insomnia

So if i don't update in months...the lesson anyone who actually reads this has learned: keep waiting.

I've decided to use my blog to calculate my life as an insomniac. It is currently 7:45 AM and I have not been to sleep. I've tried. And I can't sleep at all. Also, I slept for 4 hours yesterday during which I apparently called my other and asked her to purchase a tuna sub for me. I've spoken to the doctor about this issue and she suggested: 1)stress (but honestly i've always been stressed and have never had this much trouble sleeping) 2) that i get a bunch of blood tests b/c stress was the theory she was banking on. I'd like to invite you to join me on a miraculous, medical journey! There will be good times. There will be bad times. There will be, I predict, a fair amount of headaches. So come one come all and read the thoughts of a lovable insomniac with a heart of gold!

I've tried to 'reset' my body. Basically, what I tried to do was stay awake for over 24hrs and then got to bed at 9pm. Well, I fell asleep a couple of hours before 9 and would you know that I sleep peacefully...until about 1am...when i woke up and couldn't get back to sleep again. So now I sleep about 4 hrs/day. And the sleep that I do get is terrible, the completely dreamless kind where you wake up just as tired as you go to sleep. This is all rather boring but it stands out to me because in a lot of ways, I feel like insomnia is like the ultimate symbol of body/soul alienation. Literally, my restless body makes it more difficult for me to be at rest in any other way.

Here's a quick recap of my life: After working in the political realm for the past six months, I am now looking for a job where I can make some serious cash. Why you ask? Well, by the grace of God, I currently am 4-4 for the 14 law schools I applied to (i.e. I have gotten into the 4 schools i've heard back from). So far Georgetown University Law Center is the front runner in terms of where I am most likely to go next year. Interesting fact two of the current Maryland congressman, Van Hollen and Steny Hoyer, both graduated from Georgetown Law. So now I really need to make some serious dough. sigh. Also exciting, one of my poems should soon be in print!

It feels so strange to post good news. I think i'm going to like 2010!

also, I'm writing a novel and am looking for readers for the first chapter so let a playa know if you want to help!